第1章
Right before our college graduation trip, my girlfriend and my three childhood friends took turns borrowing every cent I had.
One claimed she needed bridge funding for a new startup venture. Another swore her mother was suddenly hospitalized without insurance. The third claimed she was drowning in delinquent credit card debt.
Finally, my girlfriend, Morgan, took the final deposit I had spent three grueling years saving for my heart surgery. Looking into my eyes with rims red from crying, she swore, "Just two weeks, Dean. I swear on my life. I’d never let anything get in the way of your surgery."
Until the afternoon my arrhythmia flared up so violently my vision blurred. The cardiologist slammed my chart onto the desk.
"We can’t push this off any longer," he warned, his tone severe. "You need to pay the surgical deposit and get admitted immediately."
Twenty-six thousand five hundred dollars. That was the exact total they had drained from me.
In my checking account, the balance sat at exactly $327.14.
I called them one by one. Every single one gave me the same rehearsed runaround: the money was tied up, funds hadn’t cleared, just give them a little more time.
On my walk back from the hospital, clutching my chest as the cold wind bit into my lungs, I passed an upscale travel agency.
Through the plate-glass window, I saw all four of them. They were gathered around Cody—the charismatic track star two years below us—huddled over an open map, booking an alpine excursion.
Five first-class boarding passes and travel vouchers lay fanned out across the sleek marble table.
"See? I told you this would work," Jordan was laughing, tapping a manicured finger against the glass table. "Drain his account dry, and he won’t have the money to cling to us and insist on tagging along."
"Dean’s heart is a ticking time bomb anyway," Bridget chimed in, leaning back with a sigh of relief. "Dragging him up there would just make him a liability. It’s better for everyone if he stays home."
"Exactly," Tabitha added breezily. "This trip is Cody’s birthday celebration. There’s no reason Dean should ruin the mood for the rest of us."
A brief silence fell over the table before Tabitha hesitated, chewing her lower lip. "Still... that was his surgery fund. What if he has an episode while we're away?"
Morgan handed a glossy brochure of the snow-capped Canadian Rockies to Cody, waving her hand with total indifference. "He’s lived with that heart defect for years. It’s not going to kill him in the next ten days."
She smiled softly at Cody. "Once we get back from the mountains, we’ll wire him the money. No harm done."
Inside the shop, Morgan casually glanced up.
The moment her eyes met mine through the glass, the easy smile slid right off her face.
...
The heavy glass door swung open with a muffled chime.
Morgan hurried outside, reaching out to grip my wrist with a hand that was surprisingly cold. "Dean. Let me explain."
Jordan, Bridget, and Tabitha filed out behind her. There wasn't a trace of shame or financial panic on any of their faces.
Past their shoulders, on the travel agent's table, I caught the unmistakable glint of four black credit cards tossed casually beside their lattes.
They had never needed money.
Jordan had just bought a brand-new German sports sedan last month. Bridget’s private investment portfolio comfortably hovered in the seven figures. Tabitha spent more on a single designer handbag than the five thousand she had begged off me with fake tears.
And Morgan? She needed money least of all.
The very morning she borrowed my last sixty-five hundred dollars, claiming she couldn't cover payroll, she had taken delivery of a custom convertible.
"So you bled my surgery fund dry..." My voice shook, vibrating with a hollow, sickening realization. "...just so I couldn't afford a plane ticket?"
Cody stepped out then, adjusting the straps of a technical alpine pack slung over his broad shoulders. He wore crisp athletic gear, his short hair effortlessly styled, carrying the kind of easy, radiant glow that belonged to someone who had never known physical weakness or fatigue.
"Dean, please don't take it the wrong way," Cody offered gently, his voice full of reasonable concern. "The girls were just worried about your condition. Alpine weather is brutal. The altitude could trigger something dangerous."
I looked down at his feet.
He was wearing the exact model of mountaineering boots I had kept saved on my browser’s wish list for six months.
From the day we started planning this graduation trip, I had practically begged them in our group chat to let me see a real snow-capped peak just once. I had drafted a twenty-page itinerary accommodating my slow pace, bought a weatherproof shell, and spent every morning doing cardiac rehabilitation drills by the book.
Morgan had held my face in her hands and promised that when we reached the summit ridge, she would stay right beside me to watch the sunrise paint the glaciers in gold.
They hadn't forgotten a single detail.
They had simply swapped me out for Cody.
"I can take care of myself," I said quietly.
Tabitha let out an outright scoff. "You? Dean, you get winded taking two flights of stairs. Your emergency pill organizer takes up more room than a laptop. Name one trip where we didn't have to take turns babysitting you."
She gestured toward Cody. "Cody isn't like that. He’s backpacked solo across the backcountry, he skydives, he dives deep reefs. Traveling with him doesn't feel like walking on eggshells."
Jordan chimed in, crossing her arms. "Remember that camping weekend last fall? You had heart palpitations at 2:00 a.m. and woke up the entire cabin. We just wanted one trip where we could breathe. Is it a crime to want to enjoy our own graduation?"
Yes. It was.
They could have simply said no.
They could have told me to my face that I was a burden, that I slowed them down, or cut me from the itinerary entirely.
Instead, they orchestrated a coordinated performance, manufacturing emergencies one by one to siphon away three years of savings earmarked to keep my heart beating.
Because they knew me. They knew that as long as I had enough in my account to buy a boarding pass, I wouldn't give up on that mountain.
Cody pressed his lips together, lowering his head. "Look... maybe I should just stay behind."
"Don't be ridiculous," Morgan snapped instantly, catching Cody by the arm before he could take a step back. "The whole route was drawn up around your stamina. Why on earth should you drop out?"
Only then did she turn back to me, her tone softening into that patronizing cadence she used when soothing an unruly pet. "Dean, the money is safe with us. Just wait for me at home. As soon as we get back, every penny will be back in your account."
I pulled the clinical referral and hospital deposit order from my pocket and held it out. "The chief of cardiology gave me a forty-eight-hour window to check in."
Morgan cast a detached glance over the paper. She didn't take it.
"You've had this condition for years, Dean. Why does it magically become an emergency the exact week we're leaving town?"
My hand dropped slowly to my side.
When I was eighteen and suffered my first cardiac crisis, Morgan had carried me on her back through the emergency room doors, sobbing until her voice broke, screaming that my life meant more to her than the world.
Now, she had traded my life for ten days of undisturbed leisure.
I tapped my phone in my pocket, quietly hitting the record button.
"Twenty-six thousand five hundred dollars. Paid back in full within two weeks. Do you all confirm that?"
One after another, they muttered their impatient agreements.
Morgan even stepped forward and patted my shoulder, an easy dismissal. "Stop making a scene, okay? When we get back, I'll take you somewhere safe. A nice beach resort or something."
I took a step backward, letting her hand fall through empty air.
At that exact moment, my phone vibrated in my palm. A text from the clinical coordinator: my reserved surgical bed would be released in forty-eight hours without payment. If I missed this window, there was no telling when another surgical slot would open.
The next morning, I packed everything they had ever left at my apartment into four cardboard boxes.
Jordan’s collegiate dance trophies. Bridget’s academic honors and portfolio folders. Tabitha’s vintage gaming consoles. And every single gift Morgan had given me over the last seven years.
For years, I had guarded those items like sacred relics.
Only now did I realize that the clutter wasn't what was out of place in that apartment.
I was.
I went to the outdoor gear shop downtown first.
Jordan was crouched by the testing platform, helping Cody adjust a pair of high-end crampons. Cody stepped onto the faux-ice incline, locked the bindings with practiced ease, and dropped half a meter onto the rubber floor.
"These have great grip," Cody said with a wide, effortless grin. "If the scree gets slick on the ridge, I can anchor a line and pull you guys up."
The three women laughed, delighted.
Jordan gave him an enthusiastic thumbs-up. "Now that’s what I call reliable. Real man material, Cody."
A cold ache blossomed behind my ribs. On our last hike, Morgan wouldn't even let me climb a set of paved stone steps on my own. She claimed she was terrified something would happen to me, but looking back, the thinly veiled irritation in her eyes had been growing darker with every passing month.
Seeing me approach, the smile vanished from Jordan’s face. "What are you doing here?"
I pushed the cardboard box toward her. "Your things."
She rifled through the top, pulling out a ribbon and her gold medal, her brows furrowing into a tight knot. "They were perfectly fine in your hall closet. What kind of tantrum is this now?"
"Didn't you say I was too clingy?" I said evenly. "From now on, keep your own belongings."
Cody caught the sharp change in the air and slung two massive duffels over his shoulders. "I'll go grab the register and settle the tab. Give you guys a minute."
Jordan watched him walk toward the checkout, her eyes filled with open admiration. "See that? No emotional baggage. No need for anyone to tiptoe around him or stroke his ego."
I gave a faint nod. "Then I hope you hold on to him."
I found Bridget at a corner coffee shop, cross-referencing maps on her tablet.
I set her box on the wooden bench beside her. Her eyes immediately skipped over her certificates and locked onto the mirrorless camera slung across my chest.
"Leave the camera," she said casually. "Cody wants to shoot long exposures of the Milky Way at altitude, and your wide-angle lens is the only one sharp enough."
"I bought this kit specifically for the mountains."
Bridget paused, slightly annoyed. "Well, you're not going. Letting it sit in a drawer is just a waste."
Last year on my birthday, they had asked what I wanted. I told them not to buy me anything—just to save up so we could all see the alpenglow together after graduation.
I had skipped meals and cut every discretionary cost for eight months to afford that specific camera body and lens, dreaming of the day I would frame the five of us standing against the golden peaks.
Now my spot on the trail was gone, and my camera was expected to capture their memories with someone else.
"No," I said.
I set the box down, turned on my heel, and walked out.
That evening, Morgan showed up at my doorstep.
She wore a sleek, insulated designer ski jacket and carried a paper takeout cup of soup that had long gone cold.
"Jordan told me you were throwing another fit today," she said, setting the cold soup on the kitchen island. "Dean, why can't you just take a page out of Cody’s book? The first time he went snowboarding, he fractured his wrist and didn't whine once."
I looked up from the table, meeting her gaze squarely. "So when my heart fails, I'm supposed to just suck it up and keep quiet?"
Morgan choked on her words. "You know that's not what I meant."
Her phone buzzed against the granite counter.
A voice note from Cody played through the speaker: "Hey, Morgan... looking at the ice wall photos for tomorrow’s clinic, feeling a little nervous about the lead climb."
Her demeanor transformed instantly. She picked up her bag, heading toward the door while tapping the screen to record a voice message, her tone teasing, light, and endlessly warm.
With her hand on the doorknob, she paused and looked back. "Oh, by the way. Hand over your passport and Real ID."
I stared at her. "Why?"
"I don't trust you," she said without batting an eye. "I know how stubborn you get. You'd probably buy a standby ticket and try to track us down."
I watched as she slipped my passport and wallet out of the entryway tray. A terrible, hollow exhaustion settled into my bones; I didn't even have the energy to reach out and stop her.
The lock clicked shut behind her.
I sat in the silence of the dark apartment, opened my healthcare portal, and permanently removed Morgan as my authorized medical proxy.
At two in the morning, my phone rang.
It was a transplant and cardiac center two states over. A patient scheduled for an emergency valve reconstruction had encountered complications and dropped out. A surgical slot had opened up. If I could get there before tomorrow night, they could take me.
I gripped the phone against my ear, listening to the hum of the refrigerator.
"Yes," I whispered. "I'll be there."
Transferring facilities required my government ID, physical insurance card, and original paper records.
When Morgan took my passport wallet, she had swept everything into her tote.
I called her twelve times. Every call went straight to voicemail.
Finally, a text notification flashed from Tabitha with a luxury hotel lounge pin drop:
"We're throwing Cody’s send-off bash. If you need something, come get it yourself."
The private banquet room smelled of expensive champagne and warm truffle oil.
Cody was standing on a velvet armchair, popping a bottle of Dom Pérignon with one hand. As the foam sprayed out, he leaped down laughing, swallowed by cheers from thirty of our peers.
"Cody, you beast!"
"Don't leave the girls behind when you sprint up that peak!"
As he hit the floor, his foot slipped on the slick parquet. Morgan lunged forward instinctively, catching him around the waist. They tumbled against each other, laughing breathlessly into each other's shoulders.
I stood in the arched doorway like a ghost who had wandered into the wrong house.
Someone in the crowd noticed me.
"Wait, isn't that the clingy guy who tried to force his way onto the trip?"
"Yeah, the one with the heart condition. Heard they had to take shifts keeping him alive on vacations."
"Jesus. Who wants to babysit an invalid on their graduation trip?"
Tabitha didn't tell them to shut up. She just swirled her wine glass and laughed along. "We spoiled him too much growing up, honestly."
Growing up, they used to tell me that I wasn't a burden—that keeping me safe was their privilege.
Now, to burnish Cody’s shine, I had been rewritten as a pathetic anchor dragging them down.
I walked straight through the crowd to Morgan. "Give me my documents."
She didn't move. "Promise you won't follow us first."
"I'm transferring to another hospital."
Jordan snorted into her drink. "New excuse? How creative."
Bridget took off her tortoiseshell glasses and rubbed the bridge of her nose, her face a mask of fatigue. "Dean, nobody is banning you from traveling forever. But Cody is independent. He has the endurance to keep up. When you come with us, every single hour is spent wondering if you’re about to pass out. Nobody can relax."
A sudden, vicious spasm clamped around my sternum.
My breath caught in my throat. I reached blindly for the edge of the nearest high-top table, my other hand fumbling inside my coat pocket for my sublingual nitro spray.
Someone brushed past me from behind, jostling my elbow.
The glass vial slipped from my slick fingers, tumbling squarely into a silver bucket filled with ice and melting water.
I dropped to my knees, frantically digging my numb hands into the crushed ice. The cold bit into my skin; my fingers trembled so violently I couldn't get a grip on the glass.
Morgan’s hand clamped down on my wrist, hauling me backward.
"Stop it, Dean!" she hissed, her face burning with embarrassment. "Just because we paid Cody a few compliments, you have to throw an episode right here on the floor?"
I lifted my head, my lips turning an ashen, oxygen-starved blue. "You think... I'm faking this?"
"Every single time we go anywhere, it’s a dizzy spell or chest tightness," she snapped. "Dean, we get tired too."
Cody’s smile faded, and he stepped forward, extending an arm toward me. "Hey, let me help him up—"
Morgan cut him off, shielding him with her arm. "Don't touch him, Cody. The more attention you give him, the more dramatic he gets."
In the end, it was a banquet server carrying a tray of appetizers who dropped his dishes, took one look at my gray face, and dialed 911.
By the time the ambulance arrived outside, the four of them had already called an Uber to head toward their airport hotel.
Morgan shoved my passport wallet into the paramedic’s hands, leaning down to hiss in my ear, "Go to the hospital if you want, but don't blow this out of proportion. Cody has been looking forward to this trip for months."
I had looked forward to it too.
For three whole years.
None of them cared.
In the back of the ambulance, as the siren wailed into the night, the emergency physician adjusted my oxygen mask and asked, "Where is your family? Who is your emergency contact?"
I stared out the small tinted window at the five figures piling into a sleek black SUV.
"I don't have anyone," I whispered.
At the receiving hospital, the intake nurse handed me the pre-op admission form on a clipboard.
Under the line labeled "Next of Kin / Emergency Contact", I held the pen steady and wrote:
"None."
My phone lit up with a group chat notification.
Cody had posted a photo of the five of them clinking mimosas in the terminal lounge.
"Next stop: the summit!"
Morgan had tagged me:
"If you’ve come to your senses, come to the gate and see us off."
At 5:00 a.m., an inter-hospital medical transport van pulled up to the curb.
The orderly helped me load my lone duffel bag into the back. Inside were three changes of clothes, my medical binders, and the camera I had bought to capture the sunrise on the peaks.
Meanwhile, the graduation chat was buzzing like a festival.
Cody uploaded a mirror selfie from the jetway. He hadn't let anyone carry a thing; he was carrying his heavy technical pack on his back and rolling two large checked bags on either side, flashing a bright, infectious grin.
Jordan replied instantly:
"Look at Cody, then look at a certain someone who needs someone else to carry his water bottle."
Tabitha piled on:
"If Dean were even half as low-maintenance as Cody, we wouldn't have had to orchestrate this whole thing."
Bridget sent:
"Drop it, guys. If he reads this, he’ll just have another heart attack."
Morgan didn't defend me.
She simply left a heart reaction under Cody’s selfie.
It turns out that when people fall out of love with you, even your dying becomes an inconvenience—a symptom of your lack of independence.
They had rewritten history so completely they forgot that on every past trip, I had never once asked for their care.
It was Morgan who had forbidden me from carrying a backpack. It was Jordan who panicked if I walked twenty paces ahead. It was Tabitha who grabbed my water flask out of my hands, and Bridget who set alarms on her phone to hand me my beta-blockers down to the exact minute.
They had built a fortress of special treatment around me, convincing me I was cherished.
And then they despised me for believing them.
I tapped the screen and left the group chat.
A private text from Morgan popped up less than ten seconds later:
"Still acting out?"
"If you really want to see the snow peaks that badly, I'll take you by myself after we get back."
A second message followed immediately:
"Assuming you get your act together and build some stamina first. Nobody wants to haul dead weight up a trail."
I stared at the screen for five long seconds. Then I hit "Delete Contact".
Next, I blocked Jordan, Bridget, and Tabitha.
Eighteen years of shared history, erased in under sixty seconds.
As the transport van merged onto the interstate passing the international airport, a commercial airliner roared overhead, banking steeply into the morning overcast.
My lock screen lit up with a text from an unknown number—Cody:
"Dean, when I catch the golden sunrise over the glaciers, I'll send you the first high-res shot."
"Please don't be mad at the girls. They just needed a vacation without stress."
I didn't reply.
I wasn't mad at them anymore.
And I wasn't waiting for them, either.
The regional cardiac center was quiet when we arrived just past sunrise.
The cardiothoracic surgeon walked me through the consent forms one last time. "Given the scarring and the delay, there is a substantial risk of malignant arrhythmia during bypass. There is a real chance you won't wake up."
He paused, looking over the top of his reading glasses. "Are you certain there's no family we should notify?"
"I have no family."
I signed my name on the bottom line.
As the nurse came to collect my personal effects, my phone began to vibrate. Morgan’s name flashed across the screen from a burner number.
I didn't want to answer, but the nurse’s thumb accidentally brushed the green icon and triggered the speakerphone.
Morgan’s sharp, exasperated voice echoed through the sterile corridor:
"Dean! How long are you going to keep up this childish silent treatment? We're boarding right now. If you rush to the terminal, you might still catch our plane taxiing out. When I get home, I'll take you to the mountains, okay? Isn't that enough?"
I looked down at the linoleum floor and asked in a low, quiet voice, "Morgan... do you even remember why I wanted to see those snow-capped peaks so badly?"
Silence fell over the line.
She didn't remember.
When I was seventeen, recovering from an open-heart failure in the pediatric ICU, hooked up to three chest tubes and shivering from post-op fever, it was Morgan who had clutched my limp hand and whispered through her tears:
"When you get through this, Dean, I promise I'll take you to see the most beautiful golden peaks in the world."
I had waited seven years for that promise.
And in the end, she took someone else.
The airport PA system crackled over the line, announcing the final boarding call for Calgary.
Morgan rushed out a hasty, dismissive sentence: "We'll talk when I land."
The call clicked dead.
I powered the phone down and handed it to the nurse.
The gurney began to roll down the long, bright hall. Fluorescent fixtures swept rhythmically across my field of view, like cold stars flashing past.
The anesthesiologist checked the wristband one last time. "Dean Thornton. Twenty-four. Unaccompanied?"
"Yes."
As the oxygen mask settled over my mouth and nose, I looked out the narrow operating-room window and saw a streak of white condensation cutting through the clouds.
They had finally gotten the trip they wanted—unburdened, light, and free of me.
And I was finally done being anyone's problem.
The heavy, pneumatic double doors swung shut behind us.
As the anesthetic plunged into my vein like liquid frost, the cardiac monitor went erratic.
A sharp, panicked yell cut through the hum of the room:
"Blood pressure is tanking!"
"V-fib! Charge the paddles to two hundred!"
The next second, the world dropped into total, absolute black.